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Mindfulness Monday: Oatmeal Edition

This morning, I watered the plants and took a shower while attempting to be mindful. However, my most interesting (and so far, unique) mindfulness experience was eating breakfast. I ate oatmeal prepared from the night before. I soaked old-fashioned oats, chia seeds, flax seeds, and a little maple syrup in milk overnight in a mason… Continue reading Mindfulness Monday: Oatmeal Edition

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We are Not Alone in This

An interesting thing happened this morning. After a night of halfway panicking for hours, I posted about how I was feeling vulnerable and anxious, and how I was going to take care of myself. Then I stepped away from social media and took my emergency anti-anxiety medication to help me sleep. I remained awake for… Continue reading We are Not Alone in This

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Self-Care for Vulnerability

I made myself vulnerable today. I submitted pieces to a literary contest for the first time, and definitely not the last. It was a rush: exciting, then nerve-wracking. I received a confirmation email that my submission had gone through. Now, I wait. Jason hasn’t been home in hours, and I'm a wreck. My heart has… Continue reading Self-Care for Vulnerability

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Mindfulness Monday: Dentist Edition

I was intentionally mindful this morning as I watered the garden. Like last week, I noticed observations made with my five senses. It was nice. At 8:00, I had my annual dentist appointment. I decided to try mindfulness then, too. I was trying to be mindful in the same way I had this morning in… Continue reading Mindfulness Monday: Dentist Edition

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On Freedom – of Many Types

Yesterday was Independence Day in my country. I had lunch with a few of my family members – bratwurst, an American staple, obviously. I named everything I could in Spanish, because I am learning and it’s fun for me. That evening we went to watch a few fireworks. Jason hates crowds, so we ended up… Continue reading On Freedom – of Many Types

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Why I Went to Church Yesterday

I went to church yesterday. The church I am a member of but have not set foot in in months. The church I attended from fourth grade through college. The church in which I volunteered in the nursery for eight years (it’s still on my resume as a community activity). The church Jason brought his… Continue reading Why I Went to Church Yesterday

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Confidence Boost Needed: Adventures of a Recovering Perfectionist

Early this morning, I watered my plants. It was nice; peaceful. The neighbor dog was inside most of the time, and when he came out, he watched me through the gap in the privacy fence he created, but chose not to bark – for once. Perhaps this is because my dog was still asleep on… Continue reading Confidence Boost Needed: Adventures of a Recovering Perfectionist

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Sensory Overload Leads to Panic Attack

It started as a great day. I was thinking about my bucket list, summer vacation, and my upcoming birthday. I told J that if he wanted to get me something, it should be an event, not a tangible item. It reminded me about making food. I love hamburgers, they are one of my favorite foods.… Continue reading Sensory Overload Leads to Panic Attack

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Back on the Horse

After my accident Wednesday, I was pumped up on adrenaline. I drove home from the service shop and was fine. Okay, I guess. I wanted to get home, and I did. My mom was surprised that I drove so soon. “Didn’t turning around hurt your neck?” No, but again: Adrenaline. That night, I had decided… Continue reading Back on the Horse