Mental Health, mental illness

Backyard Gratitude List

  Last night we went to our friend’s house in the country. While the guys talked, I laid on the roof of Jason’s car and stared at the stars. The darker it got, the more in awe I was. It was the most beautiful thing. I love the sky. I realized this first with clouds,… Continue reading Backyard Gratitude List

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Mental Health, mental illness

On Freedom – of Many Types

Yesterday was Independence Day in my country. I had lunch with a few of my family members – bratwurst, an American staple, obviously. I named everything I could in Spanish, because I am learning and it’s fun for me. That evening we went to watch a few fireworks. Jason hates crowds, so we ended up… Continue reading On Freedom – of Many Types

Mental Health, mental illness

Why I Went to Church Yesterday

I went to church yesterday. The church I am a member of but have not set foot in in months. The church I attended from fourth grade through college. The church in which I volunteered in the nursery for eight years (it’s still on my resume as a community activity). The church Jason brought his… Continue reading Why I Went to Church Yesterday

Marriage, Mental Health, mental illness

We Have All the Lights On

I'm in the living room with my husband and we have all the lights on. There are seven lights - three lights with the ceiling fan, one overhead spotlight thing, and three lamps - they are all on. I did not have a good day today. I woke up thinking I need a break. I'm… Continue reading We Have All the Lights On

Mental Health, mental illness

Independent Despite Depression

Today after I babysat, I went to the bank. It was ten minutes until noon, when I thought the bank closed. I got to the nearest bank with two minutes to spare and deposited my check from babysitting into my checking account. Then, from the bank to get home, I was closer to the interstate… Continue reading Independent Despite Depression

Mental Health, mental illness

Mood Improvement 101

Today was borderline crappy – work was fine, but I was in a personal funk that began last night. I decided to take a walk to clear my head and stay moving after I got home. Armed with a new play list to listen to, full of upbeat songs that make me happy, I headed… Continue reading Mood Improvement 101

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Dancing the Day and Night Away: Dance Marathon Recap

I got to the event about 2 minutes before check in began at 11:30 and it was already packed. Almost immediately after my arrival, the line was out the door. I got in pretty quick compared to some of those people, and was able to sit until noon when the marathon began. After a 1-2-3,… Continue reading Dancing the Day and Night Away: Dance Marathon Recap

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The Driving Force of My Independence

A few years ago, I totaled my first car that I’d had for a decade in an accident deemed entirely my fault. For the two years following, my husband was self-employed and we shared his Mercury, which was titled in both of our names anyway for a credit-rebuilding program at the dealership. He took me… Continue reading The Driving Force of My Independence

Mental Health, mental illness

Therapeutic Pampering

This morning, I pampered myself. I had a weird Friday - it was fine until the evening, during which time I got extremely emotional about something small, and ended up really angry. I journaled about it at the time and will talk about in therapy - maybe here later, when I'm ready. But the lady's… Continue reading Therapeutic Pampering

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Coming Down from Concert Elation

Thursday night I went to the Moon Taxi concert and it was the most fun I've had in a long time. The last time I had that much fun was in Branson with family, riding an enormous ferris wheel and driving go karts for the first time - I was the slowest one and I… Continue reading Coming Down from Concert Elation