Mental Health, mental illness

Mindful Morning

Friday was the first day of “vacation”, as summer school has ended. I accidentally woke up early anyway, so before I babysat, I was able to water the plants. I had a song in my head that I was dying to listen to while I watered, but I decided not to. Instead, I chose to… Continue reading Mindful Morning

bucket list, Mental Health, mental illness

Confidence Boost Needed: Adventures of a Recovering Perfectionist

Early this morning, I watered my plants. It was nice; peaceful. The neighbor dog was inside most of the time, and when he came out, he watched me through the gap in the privacy fence he created, but chose not to bark – for once. Perhaps this is because my dog was still asleep on… Continue reading Confidence Boost Needed: Adventures of a Recovering Perfectionist

bucket list, Family, Mental Health

Happy Birthday, Grandpa: Adventures in Gardening

Today would have been my grandpa’s birthday. It is precisely one week after mine, so it’s easy for me to remember. I have fond memories of my grandpa’s time with me – he was patient and kind, and he taught me to drive. My grandpa and grandma used to live on a farm in a… Continue reading Happy Birthday, Grandpa: Adventures in Gardening

Mental Health, mental illness

Sensory Overload Leads to Panic Attack

It started as a great day. I was thinking about my bucket list, summer vacation, and my upcoming birthday. I told J that if he wanted to get me something, it should be an event, not a tangible item. It reminded me about making food. I love hamburgers, they are one of my favorite foods.… Continue reading Sensory Overload Leads to Panic Attack

Mental Health, mental illness

Back on the Horse

After my accident Wednesday, I was pumped up on adrenaline. I drove home from the service shop and was fine. Okay, I guess. I wanted to get home, and I did. My mom was surprised that I drove so soon. “Didn’t turning around hurt your neck?” No, but again: Adrenaline. That night, I had decided… Continue reading Back on the Horse

Marriage, Mental Health

Adventures in Lawn Care

I used to love mowing the lawn. At least, I remember telling people that. It's possible that I loved bragging to my entitled friends about how I did manual labor that also counted as exercise. I'm not certain why I felt why that was brag-worthy, but that was definitely my MO. I also used to… Continue reading Adventures in Lawn Care

Mental Health

My Bra Shopping Ordeal

Today, I went bra shopping. I have wanted new bras since last November, at least. My only bras were too small (but still relatively comfy due to being very stretched out) and since then all have developed holes in the band and/or broken underwires. I had one intact bra, but it was covered in lace… Continue reading My Bra Shopping Ordeal

mental illness

The Driving Force of My Independence

A few years ago, I totaled my first car that I’d had for a decade in an accident deemed entirely my fault. For the two years following, my husband was self-employed and we shared his Mercury, which was titled in both of our names anyway for a credit-rebuilding program at the dealership. He took me… Continue reading The Driving Force of My Independence

Mental Health, mental illness

Therapeutic Pampering

This morning, I pampered myself. I had a weird Friday - it was fine until the evening, during which time I got extremely emotional about something small, and ended up really angry. I journaled about it at the time and will talk about in therapy - maybe here later, when I'm ready. But the lady's… Continue reading Therapeutic Pampering